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Friday, August 22, 2008

*draft saved by this morning

Hey, I just got up from bed. HAHA! I knw its late but I stayed all night long watching Dicey Business. I'm knw I'm way behind time but I didnt catch all the episodes up when they were showing in Astro. I still got loads of shows havent catch up.

Oh yeah, the main point I come blogging here today is because I dreamt about my grandpa. I knw it will be boring for some of you guys to read, but I just need to blog it out how much I miss him, & this is also a post for my cousin who loved him so much to read. Its been a long time ever sinced I dreamt about him. Well, I wasnt dreaming the whole night (frm what I rmb) but after turning off the alarm & going bck to sleep, suddenly I felt my grandpa existence in my dream.

In the dream, my family & grandpa went out as usual for dinner. & suddenly I dont knw why he merajuk, he went to some opera place to watch his show. I accompanied him because I was worry while his sick. While we were watching the show, he told me this all in hokkien which is my dialect ( I could hardly even speak/listen/understand ==). BUT I understand evrything he said in the dream IN HOKKIEN! wow, tht amaze me. HAHA! anyway, this is what he told me.

grandpa (evrything in HOKKIEN!) : Huey Ling, you're a grown up girl already. You must study hard as what I always tell you to do, not to play evryday & argue with your parents like last time. You must try to change your attitude & become a better person in life, don't be rebellious like when you were young. When I was alive, you nvr wanted to listen to what I said, but now I know you've grow up & you've come to think stuffs maturely I knew you would listen to what I say now. It is abit late for you to understand now but at least you finally understand what I'm trying to say. Nothing comes easy in life & you must work hard for what you're earning for.

The conversation was cut when Jacy came in & said we're going for dinner now. So evryone hopped in the car, this time my grandpa was driving. He drove us to some seafood restaurant & stopped outside to buy his fav ham chin peng. & tht was the last word he said, rmb what I told you & be a good girl. then that was the time he disappeared in my dream & left.

By the time I woke up, I realise there was tears & tht is when I realize how much I missed him. That evening when he passed away, I cried abit but not as how the others cry so bad. That time, I didn't understand what is the feeling of close ones leaving us forever. But after 2yrs, I FINALLY know what is the feeling of it, & whenever I thought bck of how rebellious to not listen to all grandpa's advises tht time, I feel very bad & start to cry out of nowhere.

Now come to think of it, I regretted didnt spent enough time with him & I realize theres no picture of me & him together, except when the time when I was still small. Anyway, words I wanted to say is.

Me : Dont worry grandpa, I will listen to your advise & not let you down. I will study hard & be a useful person in society in the future :)

today's news :

1. this guy below here pass for his undang & he happy sgt. Congrats &&& FINALLY I'm posting your pic up here! BWAHAHAHHA! I dont think its ugly la wei.
2. myJAYsian accepted me as their member. bangga sgt! now I'm aiming for their official member. Hee
3. I still need rm5.94 till I get my cheque. happy teramat! HAHAHAHA!
4. went KTV with Calvin today, sang until I'm voice-less now. ><

I guess I shudn't put
any high hope on you.